Up until last April, we used to be a ‘normal’ family of five. My husband, our 3 beautiful daughters Kayla, Hailey, Isabelle & I. We were not perfect, but we were happy. Our daughters ages 15, 10 & 9, have always been our world.
We were living life like most- the best we could, to the best of our ability. Sailing through, managing even through all the storms. There was always love there. We are good people.
But bad things happen even to good people.
And it happened to us. The worst imaginable thing that could ever happen…
On April 20th, 2015- while on a family vacation to visit my mom, we lost our 10 year old daughter Hailey less than 24 hours after being diagnosed with Type One Diabetes.
I hate using the word “lost” because I feel more like we were robbed.
We were robbed of our innocent little girl, without even getting a chance to fight for her life. She was here one moment & gone the next.
Blind-sighted. Shocked. Devastated. Denial. Disbelief. Guilt. Broken.
These are just some of the words that pop up in my head as I write this. As parents- how did we not know she was sick? How did we not pick up on any of the signs? Unfortunately that is the nature of this disease. We know this now, but we didn’t know it then.
A year later, we are still learning. We are still grieving. We are still holding on, even if only barely. But comfortably knowing there will be many below, to catch us if we fall.
But we don’t want to fall. We want to honor the life of our daughter & have her memory live on. Hailey was beautiful inside & out. She was sweet, smart, funny, sassy & the sunshine in our lives. She was truly an angel.
So I’m here to tell you, what happened to us can happy to anyone. It can happen to you.
It keeps happening……Other lives have been lost to Type One Diabetes since…and it’s heartbreaking each time. Even the ones that remain, still have to battle it daily. This disease does not discriminate. Please read & educate yourself & educate others. It might save a life.
I can’t say we are a normal family anymore. Our lives & hearts have been shattered. We will probably spend the rest of our lives trying to repair.
If we have gained anything at all by our loss, it’s the knowledge that we grieve so deeply because we love so deeply. We have opened our eyes to what is really important. And we know we have a beautiful angel watching over us & we will try our best to live our lives in her honor, with her spirit, always by our side.
Even on the days when we question the universe, all we have to do is remember our love.
And love, we have learned, always overcomes.